Despite the actual physical discomforts of surgery, the hardest part about this whole recovery process has actually been relearning how to re- pace myself. I usually move at the speed of light. I’m always in constant need of mental and physical stimulation. My brain and body are so bored. I’ve been trying to keep myself stimulated through writing. Writing these blogs helps me process and feel some semblance of connection to everything ad everyone around me. 

Currently, my biggest fear is being left behind while I rest. I have worked way too hard to get to where I left off last. To think I’m now being set back again after finally crawling out of the hell hole of getting situated in LA after moving from my beloved Austin,  is daunting.  I had such an awful experience my first 2 years getting situated in LA and it’s only within the last year and a half that I’ve finally felt more settled and I really don’t want to lose all that. 

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