Falling Forward | Part 4 | Itchy & Antsy
Despite the actual physical discomforts of surgery, the hardest part about this whole recovery process has actually been relearning how to re- pace myself. I usually move at the speed of light. I’m always in constant need of mental and physical stimulation. My brain and body are so bored. I’ve been trying to keep myself stimulated through writing. Writing these blogs helps me process and feel some semblance of connection to everything and everyone around me.
Currently, my biggest fear is being left behind while I rest. I have worked way too hard to get to where I left off last. To think I’m now being set back again after finally crawling out of the hell hole of getting situated in LA after moving from my beloved Austin, is daunting. I had such an awful experience my first 2 years getting situated in LA and it’s only within the last year and a half that I’ve finally felt more settled and I really don’t want to lose all that.
This industry, though I love it, is tough. You’re only as relevant as your last project and it’s a constant battle to stay current and for people to want to invest time and energy in you and your projects. I have so many projects I want to make, but now I’m here waiting around to feel 💯again. Seems like such a waste.
I’ve applied to as many fellowships as I can. Writing as much as I can. Using all of this fuel for creativity. I’d really like to direct something else asap. I’m itching to do so badly. I’ve got 4 feature scripts, 3 pilots in progress… I just need someone to take a chance on me. But how can it all happen if I’m drugged up, tired, and not able to be out and about?
Thank you to everyone who continues to check in and visit me. It really helps keep me in positive spirits. I so very appreciate it all and love you so much for the support Yestedsat, my work wives flew in from Austin to jailbreak me and get ice cream. That bright so much joy!. I wish I could fully express how much it means to me, while I lay itchy from the meds. Unable to sleep because of the steroids and looking like a minion in my ridiculous sock cap with my puffy cheeks. It’s really hard to see/live with this version of myself.
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My Austin AD work wife team, coming to jailbreak me out of recovery and get ice cream together. What a beautiful time. I missed these gals so much!
My wonderful fuzzy socks brought to me by Michelle Faraone’s care package!
Super talented actress friend Lara Shah, from way back in the day in Austin, TX who stopped by the visit me again after a long day of work. <3 you!
My online digital course to help you make your short film with the resources you have at home. I spent over 2 years building this thing. It’s finally alive and out in the world to enjoy. Please take a look and let me know if you have any suggestions and anything else you’d like to see. I am going to hopefully, build an AD module as well when I get a chance.
Learn to make a short film in less than a week with what you have! This takes you from writing to prep to post production. If you’d only like to learn a specific part of the process, I have also have those broken up into individualized a la carte modules as well! Go check it out! I spent 2 plus years building out this course. So, I hope you enjoy it and find it useful. Happy to do in-person consultation sessions too.
Also, our short film “STARFLARE” will be premiering on June 19th at Dances with Films! I should be able to attend. Listen to more about it here at the GET REELISMS PODCAST interview with the writer/actress Laura Ricci and